The Red Door

Remembering

Well it's been awhile since I've written here.

Writing doesn't come easy to me and it seems to take a long time for me to get a post out.  I have debated on wether or not to let this site go.  I am so infrequent in writing and the excuse is always the same.  Busy. As I have prayed through this situation I also often feel like I have nothing of interest to share.  Then I am reminded that I am not doing this for anyone else but myself.  Not to say that in a selfish way but I am not trying to have a thousand followers.  Not trying to make money blogging.  All I ever wanted to do was journal my families life so that I would remember.  To give myself something to remind myself of the good times.

My husband and I celebrated his birthday yesterday.  As we sat in our big restaurant booth we talked about things that we wanted to do and about things that we have done.  He amazes me at his memory.  He was sharing how we drove to a memorial that was about 15 years ago and he was talking about the green trees and country roads that we had to drive and how we passed a Boston Market restaurant.  I thought to myself "man, that's good.  I can't even remember what my daughter told me she needed to do today".  My memory is terrible!!  It is "fearful of Alzheimer's" bad.

When I realize and remember what made me start this it reminds me to keep going.  To remember for myself.  The journey to move forward by remembering what was behind.  You see I go through many day's of doubts.  Doubting who I am in God.  Doubting if I have come far in my walk with God or if all I have ever done is take a step forward to just turn around and slide back to the starting point.  Doubting if I am a good mom, wife, friend, homemaker, cook.....The doubt comes in and it is then that I need help in remembering.

Sometimes all I have to share is a snippet of some thought provoking thing that makes me think. Sometimes it is some project. Some family time or a God moment.

So I will keep writing here.  Grammar mistakes and all.  I need an outlet from my busy life, even if it is just to remember.